help?!?!?

 so i sent out like 12 resumes yesterday, some by email, others by fax, and a few by mail.  i have gotten call backs on three of them already.  i interview tomorrow for one job that sounds really good to me and i am really hoping will pay well and have great benefits and of course that i will get it.  i set up another interview but am thinking of cancelling that one because the pay is not good, there is no insurance, and i would have to work odd hours and on saturdays.  and since that doesnt sound good to me i think i should just cancel and not waste either of our time.  

so, i cancelled that interview and i got another one.  now i am interviewing every day for the rest of the week, which is good.  hopefully at least one of the interviews will result in a job offer.  hopefully it will be the one i want the most and it will pay well!  i started going through my closet and trying on all of the ‘work clothes’ i have and nothing fits.  it is so discouraging that i have lost 30 lbs and still i can not fit in to my old clothes.  they are all size 6 and i remember when i wore them last they hung on me and were too big, but now i cant even zip them up.  i have only one outfit that i can wear and it is not my favorite by far, but i have to wear it because i have nothing else.  i hope that doesnt make my self confidence even lower and ruin things for me.  grrr!!!  i just want to cry!

now i am going to go run on the treadmill and hope to lose some more.  i am determined to get another 10lbs off before i start a job so that hopefully i will be able to fit into my work clothes.  that means i am going to have to pretty much starve myself and work my ass off every day.  i have to do it though.  and i dont have much time to do it in!  according to the goal calculators that are online i can lose 4 pounds a week if i work out fairly hard every day and eat under 500 calories.  i can lose 5 lbs a week if i keep it at 300 or less calories and work out extremely hard daily.  i think the more realistic goal is going to be 4lbs a week.  If i could keep that up i would be at my goal weight by April…  that is if my metabolism didnt completely shut down… maybe the exercising would keep it going???  

does anyone know what i should do to lose at least 10lbs in the next week?  what should i do to get to my goal weight as soon as possible?  i am desperate!!!!  help?!?!?

Today’s Stats

CW:142lbs
1 spoon peanut butter – 60 cals
1 cup slimfast – 200 cals
green beans – 40cals
cleanse, fiber, vitamins, water
2 diet cokes

treadmill, ab lounger, totaling 1 hr.
total cals- 300cals

PLAN

S-0 -walk & abs
M-400 -run & abs
T-0-200 (liquids only) -walk & abs
W-500 – run & abs
T-0-200 (liquids only) -walk & abs
F-500 -run & abs
S-800 -walk & abs

vitamins, fiber, cleanse, green tea, & alot of water daily

im back skinnies

i havent been on for the past few days.  i have cheated badly.  i had my first binge in over 2 months.  it wasnt too bad but it was still bad.  so, i have not really lost any weight in the last week and am so behind on my schedule.  i absolutely have to start working out every day, saying my affirmations at least twice daily, and following a plan that i can stick to.  i have been so moody and not losing weight and i thought it was because maybe i was going to have my period again, but nothing yet…

anyway, i am starting over now.  the last plan i made did not work.  so i have modified my original plan and think it will be better.  with this plan i should lose nearly 4lbs a week.  probably i can lose more if i exercise more and harder.  we will see.  

 M 700 cals
T 300 cals (only liquids, soups, and yogurt)
W 700 cals
T 300 cals (only liquids, soups, and yogurt)
F 500 cals
S 700 cals
S 100-200 cals (only liquids, soups, and yogurt)all of this with exercise at least 5 days a week, 5htp pills, womens multivitamin, more water, and green tea daily.

CW: 149

 
we had a great 2 year anniversary celebration and i love my man so much.  we went out to eat at red lobster because we both love that place.  we had drinks and a great time.  he told me over and over how amazing i look and that made me feel really great. 

some bad things have happened in the last few days; i lost a friend because he is aparently fucking insane but even though it hurts i will get over it.  i have a birthday party to go to for my friend’s little girl this weekend.  she hasnt seen me in a few months.  i am really hoping that she will be able to tell a big difference!  i also see satan again this weekend and i hope that she can tell a difference too.  keeping my fingers crossed!

we have started house hunting, and we hope to buy a new house in may or june of 2008.  house hunting is fun.  i hope we can get something we love, though to spend as much as we want we may have to have our parents sign for it and/or i will have to get a better job.  there is alot of false information on my credit report that is being fixed and that should be taken care of by then too.  maybe we will win the lottery and all of our problems will be solved.  or maybe our parents will help us by co-signing or something…

i messed up on my ticker before, so i made a new one (it is located in my about me post under my user profile if you ever want to keep up with how i am doing)… with the final goal being 105 lbs.  the goal before christmas is still 120lbs.  so 44 to go to the final goal, and 29 to go before christmas.  ahhhh!  i dont know how i am going to do it.  anyone with any help, please comment me!

new plan

so, i have calculated and in order to lose 5lbs a week i can only have 1883 calories a week and i must work out at least 3 times a week.  so i have come up with a new basic plan to use my calories, and if i go over or under one day that is fine, because all that really matters it the calories at the end of the week.  but, i will try to stick to the basic plan as well as possible… with that in mind here is my new plan:

Sunday – FAST, only water, green tea, and 5htp

Monday – 450 calories, multivitamin, 5htp & Treadmill

Tuesday – FAST, water, green tea, diet coke, yogurt, 5htp & Pilates

Wednesday -  450 calories, multivitamin, 5htp & Treadmill

Thursday – FAST, water, green tea, diet coke, yogurt, 5htp & Pilates

Friday – 450 calories, multivitamin, 5htp & Treadmill

Saturday – 450 calories, multivitamin, 5htp

Today’s Stats

1 glass water
1 cup green tea
salad = 100 calories
bread = 60 calories
home made chips = 50 calories
chicken and rice = 300 calories

my plan

 trying to lose 40 by x-mas, so here is my plan…

M 800 cals
T 300-400 cals (only liquids, soups, and yogurt)
W 800 cals
T 300-400 cals (only liquids, soups, and yogurt)
F 500 cals
S 800 cals
S 500 cals.  

all of this with exercise at least 5 days a week, 5htp pills, womens multivitamin, more water, and green tea daily.

 

totally selfish, self indulgent, superficial things i want done when i am rich:

 

total body laser hair removal from the armpits down.  
awesome breast implants
cosmetic surgery on my face 
facials, manicures, and pedicures done all the time
detox and massage therapy done all the time