Archive | October, 2008

how to lose weight

17 Oct

often times i am asked for advice, or see posts where people are asking for advice on how to lose weight.  well, i don’t know if i should give advice but i will tell you what my basic plan is and maybe that will help.  i also highly recommend reading the book “Skinny Bitch” – it will blow you out of the water and really get you motivated and informed.

first of all drink water, water, water.  i am trying to drink at least 4liters of water every day.  it flushes out the fat and keeps you feeling full, not to mention it makes your skin look better and everything else healthier.  there are these flavor things you can get to put in your water and it makes it easier to drink more.  you can find them at the store with the drink mixes and juice.  that helps me drink more, and they aren’t too many calories either.

second, don’t eat dead rotting flesh.  use a partial or full vegetarian diet – or even better a vegan diet. i don’t eat meat – sometimes i eat fish though.  if you do eat meat try to cut down on it at least or do fish and chicken instead of red meat and pork.  then you can go to just fish.  then if you want go to no meat at all. and then you can wean over to full vegan if you wish.  this is a personal choice of course, but definitely cut out the red meat and pork and it will help.  you are what you eat and you can not be skinny and beautiful if you are putting pain and suffering into your body. 

third, try to stay away from sweets, eat only good healthy food and count the calories.  (for the most part – but sometimes you have to reward yourself and have a little of the yummies) there are many plans out there for how many calories you should have and on the side of the page i have a link to a goal calculator that is helpful.  no sodas unless they are the 0 calorie kind, i drink diet 7up or diet coke with splenda if i have to break down and have a soda but rarely do i ever break down and have a soda anymore – like once a month maybe.  soda is like liquid fat, it has so many calories and it makes you get so fat!  don’t eat or drink things with high-fructose corn syrup in them either and stay away from things with ingredients that look like crazy words you cant read.  keep it simple and know what you are putting into your body. 

fourth, make a plan, set obtainable goals, and reward yourself when you make those goals.  there are tons of plans out there and you just have to find one that will work for you.  total starvation does not count as a plan either, because in the end it will just make you end up getting fat when you break down and eat – and we always break down sometime don’t we?!?! 

my plan is to zig-zag my calories, which means have higher and lower days.  this is supposed to help your metabolism stay up because your body thinks it is getting fed on the high days and then you have low days to lose weight and your metabolism is still going because it was not expecting it.  with this plan you don’t feel like you are starving yourself and you can have days where you eat more or have a ‘treat’ as long as you don’t go crazy.  it is alot easier to stick with and you feel better because you aren’t always failing at your goals and it works because you can still eat with friends or family sometimes and nobody knows that anything is up. 

along with this plan i have some days i throw in of fasting because not only does it help lose weight but also helps clean out your system and there are many health benefits that i have found. i have rewards set up that i will give myself when i reach certain goals and this makes it easier and more fun too.

fifth, exercise.  you have to exercise to lose weight, you really do.  i don’t care what anyone tells you – if you want it to come off you have to work for it.  look on my links at the side and there is one for calories burned.  i have found a few great sites that calculate calories burned for you online and this is my favorite one so far.  you can burn calories even by cleaning the house, having sex, etc.  but you must, must, must also exercise.  even if you don’t have the equipment get some hand weights, exercise videos, go walking, jogging, etc.  it helps you lose weight, feel better, gets your metabolism going and you just have to do it.

sixth, take your vitamins and get your sleep.  if you take a daily multivitamin your body will get all of the nutrients that it needs and you will be less likely to have cravings caused by your body needing something.  you must also get your beauty rest.  in all my research i have found that if you dont get enough sleep it will make you fat along with many other problems.  plus, if you are sleeping you won’t be eating now will you?!?

these are just basics, but hopefully this will help!  once more, get the “Skinny Bitch” book and make it your bible.  i read through it about once a week just to keep myself reminded and aware. 

i also encourage you to research online, you will find alot about the things i talked about there.  the more informed you are the better you will do.  if there is anything i have forgotten please let me know and i will add it in here.  i am going to be updating this post over time…

if you can stick to it you will see results and you will feel better.  good luck!

 

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measurements

17 Oct

So, about my job firing me after they found out I have cancer, etc….  I went to my first meeting today with the lawyers I have been talking to on the phone.  They have a beautiful office and they were very nice, thorough, and helpful.  We went over everything in detail and they feel that there may be several different areas where they could do something.  They were interested in helping and looking further into it so I got all of my records together and took them back this afternoon.  I had thought this might be a shot in the dark but it looks like there might actually be something they can do which is very encouraging.I decided to do measurements on myself so that when I lose weight I can see if I am getting smaller.  I measured and it was disgusting and sickening, depressing and so freaking unbelivable.  How did I let myself get so huge?  I have to get this weight off, I have to shrink those areas.  OMG! 

MY MEASUREMENTS

liquid fast

15 Oct

i started my liquid fast today and am doing well.  i also cleaned the house big time then worked out abs and arms.  i feel pretty sick, but not hungry.  yay!  i am going to do this for as long as i can.  i have to catch up for this last week of slacking!

Stats For Today

ammendment

9 Oct

i have been researching online all night because i cant sleep and think that my newest plan of 600 or less every day will not work.  from what i have seen i think that ‘zig zagging’ the calories is going to be the best way to go.  i know the calories are pretty high, but that is why i am going to add so much exercise (from what i have read just cutting the calories will put you in starvation mode – so you have to have some calories but exercise).  so, alas, i will have a new plan…

S: 500 or less – rest
M: 700 – legs & abs
T: 800 – cardio
W:500 – arms & pilates
T: 800 – cardio
F:500 – arms & abs
S:1000 – cardio

i will stick with my vegitarian diet of course, and try to eat things that are not total junk food.  i will have at least 4 liters of water every day.  i will take my meds every day and vitamins.  i will try to do as much liquids as possible, like slimfast or soup instead of heavy meals and also make sure to spread my calories out through the day.  i will still try to do something productive, clean house, and say my affirmations every day. i will have my rewards when i reach the goal of 130, 120, and 110. 

with this plan i hope to lose at least 4lbs a week until christmas for a total of 40lbs lost by christmas. 

Stats For Today

newest plan

8 Oct

i have to lose about 4lbs a week to make my goal of 40lbs by christmas.  here is the plan i have for myself…

600 calories daily or less.

4 liters water daily or more.

eat only apples, rice, salad, or veggie soup.

exercise daily.

do something productive like…  journal, work on business plan, budget, read, etc. daily.

clean or organize something daily.

affirmations daily.

Stats For Today

bipolar ramblings

7 Oct

part of a letter to a friend:

 
I don’t know what has been wrong with me, really it is ridiculous.  I went to the government shrink on the 1st and after that I have just gone crazy.  I told you she asked about some of the bad things that had happened to me but then wouldn’t even let me tell her all of it because she said it was ‘too upsetting’ for her to hear.  Well, it really bothered me that nobody cares enough to listen, not even doctors who are supposed to listen, and it made me bring it all back up and start thinking about it all again and then I just went crazy. 
 
Every day since that I have been going out shopping all day long, spending money I don’t have to be spending and doing stupid stuff like stealing some $3 earrings that I could have just paid for.  Then when I come home I clean like a mad woman.  I have totally cleaned out our closet and re-organized it, planted all new plants in our front yard, vacuumed the floors and scrubbed the house from top to bottom every day and it is just crazy, I cant stop and I cant slow down.  Then one night I took a bunch of Xanax, another night I got totally drunk off my ass, and every night I keep on taking a few Benadryl and a xanax so it will knock me out and I can sleep for a little while.
 
I am sorry I haven’t written, I was just so embarrassed of how I have been acting and I don’t feel like myself.  All of the sudden I am so angry with my parents and I don’t want to talk with them and I am positive they hate me.  I haven’t answered any calls from my friends or family.  I’m just all freaked out.  And my bf is so involved in his own shit (stupid video games and ‘war hammer’ crap) that he doesn’t even notice. 
 

I am still fat.  I gained back the weight I lost and am still sitting at 150lbs.  I have been eating and eating and eating some more… lots of junk and candy too.  I am going to start taking Xenadrine tomorrow and maybe go to the health food store and see if I can find anything.  They don’t sell anything with ephedrine here so I cant get my hands on that, and I cant afford adderall right now so I will have to find something cheap that will work and work fast.  I found the crystal lite things you add to your water and am about to go make one right now.  I bought like 6 boxes of them!  I took laxatives yesterday and I am thinking I will take more tonight. 

so, yeah i have been messed up lately and not doing well.  the stupid bipolar stuff is just going crazy.  and i hate everyone, and i hate all the bad things that have happened to me, and i am so mad at my brother for doing what he did and continues to do to me and at my parents for always letting him and not protecting me.  everything started with that, and that started when i was too young to even remember it starting… its just always been.  my life has been downhill ever since then.

i havent been home in a year and it is because i cant breathe just thinking of going there and dealing with him and its not fair.  i want to go home and visit my sick grandma and my pets and have a nice time with my family.  i keep thinking of suicide and that stupid doctor telling me i need to check into a hospital.  and my bf is shopping for my wedding ring and i love him so much but he is oblivious to whats going on with me and i feel so alone, and i hate being alone.