All About Me

allow myself … to introduce… myself…

so wow.  i am realizing that talking truthfully about myself is not so easy.  but, in this journal i vow to do just that.  this is basically a journal to vent, track my weight and eating, and get my thoughts out, but if anyone cares to read it and/or get to know me, of course i would be thrilled. 

so first of all let’s get this out of the way… yes, i am damaged, dark and twisty (who isn’t really?) but in real life i try not to let that show – it is only on here i have decided to let it all out. 

i do not take myself that seriously and tend to laugh whenever i do something stupid or totally lame. i don’t think I’m the shit. i don’t think i’m superior to other people. i don’t judge easily. i have a crazy sense of humor and a potty mouth sometimes.  i don’t care about whatever you listen to, i listen to everything. i’m a normal human being who happens to be very kind and i have my faults just like anyone else, but i’d like to believe that my pros outweigh my cons.  i’ll leave it to you to decide that for yourself though.

i am hoping to make some good friends on here who have the same sort of issues i do and who also want to talk and support each other, not only in the hard times but good ones as well.  i am looking forward to getting to know people like me. the kind of people who are not afraid to be themselves, but use their brains to make well-thought-out decisions. i appreciate people who are “free”, but are not so selfish that they hurt others through their actions. 

i can not deal with liars, cheaters, fakes, stupidity, arrogance, or of course big ol’ meany heads. i have a sense of humor and I’m not afraid to use it. so, if you are a fellow pro-ana or ed,  or if you are just interested for some other strange reason, here are my stats …

 starting stats
H: 5ft 4.5in
SW: 170 (02.17.10)

HW: 180ish (and 202 while pregnant)
LW: 90
GW1: 120 
GW2: 110
GW3: 105 or less


Neck: 14in
Bicep: 14in
Tricep: 10in
Wrist: 6in
Boobs: 38in
Ribs: 35in
Belly Button: 34in
Belly: 36in
Butt: 40in
Thigh: 22.5in
Calf: 14in
Ankle: 8.5in





My Weight Chart:
Weight Chart


 i have always been very skinny until the past few years when everything just blew up on me and i started binge eating, but now i am determined to get skinny again and look good again.  i dont like the way people look at me now that i am fat and even more i dont like the way i look at myself.  

i guess that is all for now.  

 thanks for reading and hopefully i’ll talk to you soon!


One Response to “All About Me”

  1. Kentucky Dave 02/19/2010 at 7:03 pm #

    We are all so different and diverse. You acknowledge yourself and that gives you a place in this world.
    I think you think a lot. Not everyone does this, ya know. This gives you something to work with that others possess but are sometimes not even aware of.
    I have just connected with you in Yahoo Q&A, and checked out your link to here. We all have our specific problems, large and small, in varying degrees.
    Once you overcome whatever obstacle you feel is your worst one, you will begin to have moments of realizations about yourself.
    Just remember, the past is getting farther and farther away, and will have less and less influence as you see this fact. It cannot touch you now. It’s merely you who decides what you can gleen from your personal past that you can use to help you in the future. And the future is now!
    Good Luck to you!

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